that thing that burns a hole in my heart.

( i understand I've been on hiatus for while...but I'm back for a few days. I just wanted to share with you some of my thoughts that's been rambling around my mind since the last time i blogged. I posted this on facebook, and i decided to bring it on here to share with yall. )

there's a certain thing that i look for.

warm.

tender.

loving.

something that kept me happy for oh so long and i never once shared a sad face.

although there's a B I G difference in WANTING and NEEDING, i still WANT && NEED that feeling back.

i need that thing called Love.

you know the four letter word that bring 2 other four letter words with it? like...

pain?

hurt?

and some other homeboys like...

misery?

regret?

sorrow?

i want the love that brings

happy!

excitement!

laughter! THE WORKS!

i guess no one will ever see me happy like that again. 

but its ok. 

I'm going to continue to gain that love for myself back. before i let anyone destroy what I'm trying to rebuild <3

(and im not just writing this. this is exactly how i feel 4real.)

In our darkest hour,

In my deepest despair,

Will you still care?

Will you be there?

In my trials,

And my tribulations,

Through our doubts,

And frustrations,

In my violence,

In my turbulence,

Through my fear,

And my confessions,

In my anguish, and my pains

Through my joy, and my sorrow

In the promise of another tomorrow,

I’ll never let you part,

For you're always, in my heart.

our first ever picture together.

i found this poem on someone's blog i forgot who though.